28 Sept 2014. (Actual excerpt from my journal).
“Where are you Ciel? I’m in a tangle. I want to be visible in the world yet I hide all the time. I’m sacred. I’m scared of losing myself. I feel like I haven’t ‘figured’ ! me out yet and if only I work hard enough I’ll get me figured out. What if this is who you are, what if there is nothing to figure out? “
This is what I was writing, in service, when Reverend Terry gifted me the 4T Prosperity Program. I received it knowing that it was meant for me and curious what it was going to teach me. Other members of the congregation expressed their interest in the program, so in keeping with the tenant or tithing my talents, I decided to share the program, in my home, each Monday night for 12 weeks.
Ernest Holmes says there isn’t a process to heal, rather there is a process for healing. Healing is wholeness revealing.
We may have ‘forgotten’ our wholeness because of our life experience.
Choose what gives you greater Joy in your life.
On October 13th we began. It has been an amazing experience. My ideas about prosperity have changed. I have experienced a spiritual mind treatment which has changed:
- my habit of fear and lack and replaced them with faith and prayer!
- I know how to draft my own prayer statements!
- I have a personal prayer statement, a vision statement, a mission statement and my goals all laid out.
- I’ve created an ‘I am’ map and a Treasure Map
- My weekly tithing has changed from dread to joy and ease. My tithe has grown with myincome and my income has been what I envisioned.
- Sharing the course with others has been a tithe of my talents and my time which has been a great gift for all of us.
In addition, this course has taught me how to recognize the small ‘me’ ideas filled with fear, doubt, lack and uncertainty. And demonstrated the large ‘me’ ideas of abundance, prosperity, love, joy and possibility.
As an example of my abundance, I set a financial goal that I wanted to reach by the end of the year and I’m very close to actually reaching that number. One of the actions that I made in reaching that goal, was to advertise my knitting skills by posting pictures of the beautiful things that I have made and offering to knit for people’s Christmas gifts. Well, I have been busy knitting non stop for the past few weeks. In total I’ve earned $1186.00 knitting. Fantastic. I’ve always wanted to earn a living doing what I love and this is a prime example of doing just that.
“I’m ready to live free of this limiting belief and I’m scared because I don’t know how to ‘be’ without it. It’s been my habit to survive, struggle and be invisible.”
I create beautiful things and now I am getting paid for my creations, sharing love, and spreading beauty in the world. Hmm, Hmmm, Hmmmm I’m so happy and grateful to be able to do this.
27 Dec 2014
“We are approaching the end of the year and what a wonderful year it has been. I’m grateful for all the blessings I have received and all the blessing I have bestowed.
My heart is visible now. I can feel it, I can see it beaming out of my eyes. The other day when I was with Brice (my nephew) I felt it. I felt a radiation of love extending to him.
Also with Claire. I threw my arm around her and expressed how happy I was to spend the afternoon with her.
My Brother Gary said that he noticed a difference in her even with the bit of time that we had together. Thank you Lord for being with me and helping me have the connection with them and more importantly staying present with myself. “
My family has been so fractured in the past that our connections have been quite flimsy. My family needs to know me. With the help of this course I have been able to witness my love expressing itself outward and the results have been amazing.
I’m grateful for the transformation and remembering that has happened in me during this spiritual mind treatment. I’m grateful to feel God’s love working through me. I feel like I have tapped into the well spring of love and abundance. I feel Peace in my life. I feel hope in my life. I feel abundance in my life.
Thank you Reverend Terry for gifting me this program.
Thank you Shirley, Nancy, Kathy, Mario, and Kelly for your dedication each week.
Thank you God for all that I am, all that I receive and all the gifts I have to share.
And I’m thankful to myself for being willing to change my mind about my prosperity.
Happy New Year everyone.